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Let's sit here.

Pretend it's all ok.

Pretend life is perfect.

Pretend.



That's all I do.

Pretend.

Pretend I'm happy.

Pretend I don't hate you.



I do this well,

I keep smiling all the while I am slowly vanishing.



I'm sitting in class right now

pretending.....



That I care.



I don't care.

About anything.

Anyone.

Anyone never loved Nobody,



buy Nobody loved Anyone.

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King`Tarquin
18:00 Mar 31 2011

they BOTH need Somebody.

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I spend my time in isolation in my mind.



I'm a very "social" person superficially,

But on the inside I am a "loner"



I've spent most of my time avoiding that fact I do bad things.



spent most of the time trying to act like I don't care if people hurt my "feelings"



I spend most of the time trying not to be human.



But sadly I am human.



so I feel these tedious emotions of loneliness and sadness.



I fight back the feelings that cause the urge to "connect" to someone.



That just causes more trouble I rather be alone than try and "love" another.



It all ends badly, and I have no time for that.

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aneishka
10:40 Mar 27 2011

Yeah I'm pretty much where you are right now. Sometimes I feel I'm better alone because I just cause trouble.

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"If you don't stand for something, you'll fall for anything."

and

"Don't write a check with you mouth you can't cash with your ass"



Best quotes ever!

If you want me in your life, put me there. I shouldn't have to fight for a spot.

It's always fun to be bipolar.....





And have freak out manic episodes in front of people you know -_-;

There are days were I consider killing myself.



Then there are days like today.



Where I hang out with my geeky friends in a jacks for 4 hours playing magic.



The best things in life are small. Things that matter to you.



Today as just one of those days that makes me happy I'm not like everyone else.



Also Try the new funnel cakes at Jacks they are awesome.

It's not nice to be ugly

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TheSYSTEM
05:52 Mar 23 2011

The worst kind of ugly is on the inside.

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InsanityHasPigtails
14:20 Mar 23 2011

Yes, that is the kind of ugly I was talking about.

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I don't get mad anymore, I'm over that stage in my life. I'm just not gonna put up with your shit.

Had enough.



Of your shit, of you as a person.

I could grow a farm with how much shit you give me.



You constantly hurt my feelings.

you are only around when you need me, then you just leave.

You then have the audacity to complain about others doing that.



I'm tired of today.

Tomorrow please just come.

today is just shit.



-__-;

Due to the fact the odd number was bugging me.



Let us see what wise words of wiseness will i bestow upon the masses this evening.



So I'm washing my clothes Right?

There is this Mexican lady here with like 15 kids and like 2 years worth of clothes.

So Im complaining to Alan (My best friend) that she is using all the dryers.

(keep in mind there are like 38, I'm not sure why he didn't just buy 40 and make it even, I digress.)



So he Tells "Classic mexican trolling right there. i bet you theres only like one pair of pants per dryer"



This made my whole day.... It was the funniest shit ever.

I know this girl.



I hate people like her.



I don't hate her as a person, I hate what she does.



I hate it when people parade their significant other around like a piece of meat.



You ask them how long have you been together?

"a week"

"What the fu---------

you posted like a million pictures up and you said you loved him o-o;;; and it seems like you have been together a while...."



"WELL I LOVE HIM, and all these other bitches can step off him!" -insert angry face-



"I'm pretty sure no one wants him.."



"ERYONE WANT HIMMMMMM CAUSE I GOTS HIM AND THEY JUST BE JELLY CAUSE IM SO HAPPY



SO who you with girl????" - says like classic Latina wanna be gangster-



(in my mind she is saying) " Thats why I post so many facebook pictures up cause I want the whole world to know Im happy and that you cant have this cause clearly this guy is so great everyone wants him and my life is better than yours -insert my name here- cause you wish you had my bf even though we have only been together for a week and I act as if we are married"





"this guy... ._."



"how long?"





"A while.... ( I think I'm losing brain cells talking to you)"



"Then why don't you post pictures or say you love him on FaccccceeBOOOOOOOOOOOOOOk gurl"



"Well.... Personally I don't think I need to post anything or change my "relationships status" to prove I genuinely care for someone...or that they care for me,plus I am happy"



"Girl he just a playaaaaaa"



"Um... wasn't your boyfriend in jail...... and he dropped out of school....."



"yeah so what?"



"nothing..... ._."



MY GOD it was the longest 5 mins of my life.

I literally wanted to stab my eyes out with spoons!!!!

I feel like shit.



Stupid bonfire.

Life is funny sometimes.



people are strange, and I'm not really a "people person" Though people seem to be drawn to me.



I'm different from them now I guess. I have grown up and they have decided not to.



I guess I miss those days when you were my rock and I was yours and the rest of our friends we loved so much.



Now life is different. I walk away and you no longer follow. But come to think about it you never followed to begin with.







Maybe I just didn't want to see that.





Life is not a fairy tale.



most of the time It sucks.





But there are times when you find refuge from this life in the happiness of something else.



I will find refuge, I don't need someone else to save me from life. I can save myself.

Lies built upon lies.



Bottled up emotions realized in everything you do.



sitting here thinking why Americans are so stupid.



Today has been a long day.



I need sleep but I cant sleep yet.





this is about more than one thing but to explain it all would be an emotional endeavor.

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TheSYSTEM
01:02 Mar 18 2011

Did anyone ever tell you that you have such wise words?

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InsanityHasPigtails
01:31 Mar 18 2011

No, but thank you. haha.

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so I sat there today in class.



thinking.



I am wasting my life here.



Now I am smarter than the average person, I am not trying to sound arrogant but I am pretty damn smart.



After the first time of learning something I don't like to go over it again and again. I got it the first time.



So anyways back to class... I'm sitting there trying not to fall asleep though my eyes seem to have a different idea.



I hate it there. I feel like I'm wasting my time with the brainwashed masses who think they know everything about everything.



When in reality we all know nothing.



I'm not sure what I'm ever trying to say.



It's just depressing sitting there feeling like I'm wasting my life watching the moronic people around me.



Or maybe I'm just lazy and trying to find a reason to validate why I don't do my work in class.

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moonkissed
23:44 Mar 16 2011

People who are smart get bored, people who are wise get their work done so their parents don't nag them.

People who are brilliant say yeah yeah and skate through with C- minus so no one will ever ask to much of them while knowing that if they really run into trouble they can pull an ace out of their butt :P

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Party on Wayne. Party on Garth.

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TheSYSTEM
00:39 Mar 16 2011

We are not worthy! :P

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InsanityHasPigtails
00:45 Mar 16 2011

hahah, thats the best. :D

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And when I fell, I fell hard.

People enjoy telling me personal things,



maybe it is due to the fact I just listen and never judge.



I'm not sure why but its funny to listen to drama, due to the fact it is not my drama.



Most of it is better than TV.



man I need some coffee.

for my photos hold the most memories.



My artwork holds the most emotion.



and without them I would be lost.

It always makes me wonder why I am the only one so strong in my convictions.



I would stand up for you no matter what.

Why can't you do that same?

I wish I went to Hogwarts.

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TheSYSTEM
06:32 Mar 11 2011

I wish I could go to whatever candy shop they had. >_> Really, I must love weird candies too much. T_T

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InsanityHasPigtails
06:50 Mar 11 2011

right I love the whole world T_T its sooooooo AWESOME!

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I like juice boxes, let it be know.



they are amazing.

every day i write to stay sane.



To feel more than nothing.



My brain hurts.



Heal it.



Heal me.



I'm dying.



So slowly, I can feel each layer of skin fade away.

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EmoPrincess
23:44 Mar 26 2011

wow that describes me :)

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I want to change my name to "Artful Vomit"



What do you think?

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TheSYSTEM
03:37 Mar 10 2011

I like your old name. :P

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InsanityHasPigtails
03:39 Mar 10 2011

Lol yeah I do like my name Im tempted to change it but i loose all this crap D< man

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TheSYSTEM
03:57 Mar 10 2011

I agree. Some comments are classics that you can't get back. :P Just a small downfall to the name changing game. I like how yours is diffrent from other people's.

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InsanityHasPigtails
04:01 Mar 10 2011

I like yours cause every time you enter the box :D it makes me giggle. haha.

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Bijou
04:17 Mar 10 2011

you could always make second profile with this name.

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I don't remember the last time I was happy.

Some one day i decided I was gonna be different



So I stopped and looked around and realized I was already different by just being me.

what the hell?

Things I hate:



-Kids

-kiwis

-pudding

-people that breath hard

-people that say calling a black person black is racist

-sand in my shoes

- when my laces are not the same length

- people that act like they never listened to the backstreet boys (we all know you did)

-posers

-haters

-positive people

-veggies

-people pointing out i spelled things wrong

-homework

-girls

-guys

-babies

-adults

-old people smell

-old people

-bad teeth

-bad breath

-life

-death

-earth

-people

-oil companies

-government

-people who act like america is the worlds big brother

-other countries that complain about america

-Americans that complain about america

-battleship

-scrabble

-you

-me

-chairs that are hard

-beds that are hard

-when you cant find someone you just put down

getting a whole in your sock

-falling in water

-hot rain

-when my guitar is out of tune

-list

-dust

-rat poop

- hard blankets

-people who get sad

So I sat there thinking all of 7th period "It's amazing that one trip can change so much, that you are talking to me again....like before I told you"



Its amazing the feelings that resurface, the feelings it took so long to bury after sophomore year when everything fell apart.



This is our last year together I'm so tempted to tell you how much I like you.... Well after 5 years is that Like turned into Love?



who knows but I kinda like what we have no I don't want to lost it again.





Should I just be content with watching from afar.....



Maybe

I'll eat your heart.

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Enrapture
00:28 Mar 09 2011

I'll eat your dog. D<

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We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone.

It was nice to have a break from normality.